i woke up at . 8 am . this morning.
my phone was ringing madly. ok. fine. not ringing but vibrating.
anyway. it was garene. we decided not to go to the airport to study as i was feeling depressed and she was lazy.
yes. lots of stuff have happened. things that are not that nice
i've learnt alot. i guess.what happened showed me who my true friends are and who i can trust.
it showed me that i'm not that strong.
and it showed how weak my faith in god is
all i can do now is seat at the back of church and wait for it to pass over. silently
as they say sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me.
it did hurt me la. but i'm trying to not let them affect me

anyway. to continue my day
at 9am, i decided to get my fatarse up and read a boook. yes..
i read scooby doo and the boogey bowler
aha. it was a funnybook. don't ask me how i got it.
it was something about this lady called ms carbonara. i don't know why but just saying her name made me smile. aha..
yes yes. after that i played some games with my lil bro to occupy him. it was my mother's orders. her friends were over to sell some stupid stuff that i feel are completely redundant and useless. yes. blemish free cream, mascara that is allergy free,vitamins that prevent cancer.
pots and pans that supposedly make ur food taste good. yes. all the nonsense. and some aftershave they forced on my guinnea pig father. yes yes. and my poor anuties who were over were obviously hoodwinked into getting these silly products.
aha
yep. and now i'm sitting here thinking. how can i mend my broken heart,how can i stop the rain from falling, and how can a loser over truimph.
will i always be on the losing end?
aha.
am i juz someone who is too afraid too stand up and speak out
like how can a born loser truimph.
its almost impossible
and yet i am able to live in a deusion that i'm happy.
and that i'm gonna play ball later.
with all these problems like my studies , the high chance of retaining, and the tongues that wag