this guy helped me and he doesn't even know me
Hi Melia!

I'm glad to hear that things are going better for you :) Its good that you've come to a decision about this guy that you can live with... that's the most important thing, I think... being able to make your own decision. Well, just remember too that this might not be the only time you get hung up over a guy and have him turn cold on you :( Some guys are like that :( But hopefully, other guys that you will meet and like will be more committed :)

No need to thank me for listening. Its kinda what I do. So whenever you need to talk, just email me or if you're online, just msg me.

Well, there's nothin' really special about me. I'm just an average guy, going to university, UBC. I think I've told you that I study civil engineering. I'm graduating this December, so I'm happy about that. And I've got a job lined up so its all good :D

Well, what else? I'm a Christian... have been one most of my life. I'm really lucky to have grown up in a Christian family. Other frenz who have parents who aren't have it really rough. You know, I think being a Christian helps me care for other ppl... its not cuz I want to be good in order to be Christian, but rather... hm... well God kinda helps me be good, in spite of me... hehe sorta odd isn't it?
Nouver



this girl hurt me and she's my best friend

★and i'm standing alone once more says:
anyway
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
in what way do i act like not myself
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
i mean like can give example
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
so i can change?
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
if you wanna change
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
okay one example why i can see it very clearly why you're standing so near guys. cause you always stand damn near to jeremy. even if youre not talking. i dont know why. but you stand near other guys too.
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
you dont believe you notice them yourself la
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
but if that's not close to you, then i have nothing to say
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
no wonder they all say that jeremy and you like each other
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
okay
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
i won't stand so near them
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
and during the table tennis match, i dont know why you keep... showing your boobs
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
it's very disgusting actually
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
that's what i feel
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
but may not be what others or you feel
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
i'm sorry .
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
huh. for what.. its ok. thanks for telling em
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
me
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
i bet youre damn angry at me
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
and you'll go ask mel or char or talk behind my back or something
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
or cry or be angry with me
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
or wont forgive me forever
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
i'm sorry
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
huh. no la.. i'm not angry. and i don't cry bout this knida stuff.. and.. am i those sort that will go tell mel and char to say stuff. if i am then sorry for giving u the impression
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
no la
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
i'm scared
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
youre damn mad at me
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
i know
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
no la.. i'm not.. i really am not
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
y should i be mad? aiyo. i'm just.. calm.. heh.. think cause at night.. tired le
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
youre angry with me
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
no
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
don't worry
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
i never do
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
but
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
oh right. so when you wake up tmrw, you get angry with me
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
no la..
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
of course not
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
yes!! youre going to be angry with me
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
i'll just be like reminding myself to change
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
yep



she don't worry cause she don't care..


★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
but if you change to becoming like that
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
then there's nothing to be donw
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
huh
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
why?
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
as in, it's difficult
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
then you start becoming the extreme and everything then it's my fault
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
huh
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
y ur fault?
★ hallo, i'm asexual; are you intimidated? says:
like when we go out, youre ultra loud. so weird. not you at all. but sounds like timothy and jeremy
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
ok.. i know. i
★and i'm standing alone once more says:
ll change that too

disheartens me more by saying all these things and more


i am not gonna put the rest of the conversation in cause by now i'm struggling to hold my tears back. am i really like this.. i hate myself.
goodnight


love och kram