in the midst of the common tests
my mind is in a whirlwind
i just can't rest
i'll never forget what u said to me
'i'm studying for my o levels'
please leave me be
naive i was
i believed your words
comforting myself
trusting you
knowing full well that i would get hurt

true enough
i ended it all
or was it you who said goodbye
i can't remember at all

a day ago
we talked
how are you
i asked.
hoping with my heart racing
you would go
not fine . with you only in my mind.
but sadly to say u told me the truth.
that i never was that important.
oh why did u put those words in his mouth
o muse.


now u're older
so am i
you pretend as if nothing happened
and so do i
i do so much want to ask you again
if you still love me now
and
if your love was true then
but i'm not brave enough
so how

i'm so done with you
thats what i say
but i really can't convince myself
to leave you behind
cause of the love you gave once
long before
i have to repeat
its making me now so grave

goodbye to you
i want to say
but.
goodbye just seems so hard to say

i got to get back to my books now
but fear not
for though i'm over you, i guess
i'll think of back then
just once in a while
its not a crime i do believe.
to just place you in my memory .


-amelia