tuition with mr lim was ok. let me describe it to you.
amelia sitting at one corner of the table.
mr lim at the opposite end
. mr lim talks.
and drones on and on.
amelia nods and thinks bout stuff.
daydreaming
her fav hobby

and that was tuition.
ha

hmm.. i was thinking bout lots of stuff during tuition
and i figured out the reason why i don't go to jericho anymore
its cause of him*
i really don't think i'm still in love with him*
i know that i don't love him* anymore rather
cause how can i love someone who hurts me so much
and how can i love someone i barely know
i mean .
you people out there tell me.
is 3 months alot
i mean if we see each other only once a forthnight
no right!
ya
but i just don't want to relive any memory
everytime i think bout him*
talk bout him*
talk to him*.
and he* nothing has happened
it just kills me
like part of me is being crushed
and the thing is that no one should ever make me feel this way
because no one
i repeat
no one is allowed to hurt me.
from all the flings i have.
ha
yes flings
no one has hurt me
i still remember my first steady
hah
in sec oneha. mervin mark.
i was like so innocent then can.
so weird.
and he was the onlyone who noticed me form the first day of schoool
came to me
talked to me
and ya.
when he asked me to be his girlfriend
of course i went gaga like really gaga like hello
the girl who all the guys thought was an ungly puny shit in primary school
has a guy liking her!
so i said yes
ha
i don't really remember the rest of my so called flings.
but i never thought i would ever get serious bout anyone after mervin
but yea
along came darren
and ya he screwed me up
i can't stand him. no. i don't know
i just know that i never wanna talk to him again.
mabe i do..hmmmm.. anyhow. mervin and i are like best friends now. ha. like.. buddies.. and darren. he just pretends nothing has appened.
imean like after i told him i think we shld go slower in oct.
he ignored me.
went to amerixca after he's os.
came back.
and said.
o hi
ya forgot to tell u i was back. right.go eat urself..
aargh
anyway.
right at this very moment i can happily say i'm betteroff without any of those two guysmentioned above and i'm happily in love with my bear.
yep
thats all
anyhow.
school was ok today
im going to nyp tml!
aha
to see tammy?
i hope not..
aha
poor thing
o well
life goes on.
with or without the things you want

and like desperate housewives always ends its shows.
life doesn't always give you what u want.
its best to treasure what you have
cause you never know when they will be taken away from you