a little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me
-falloutboy


well,. here i am front of the computer screen again. its kind of weird to be blogging during the prelims.but i think i have almost , nearly given up. not entirely yet but nearly.
i have so much to prove yet so little to give, or rather so lazy to give.its hard to live everyday when your day ends with a night and the night ends with a start oof another day
just the other day i recieved an sms from a close friend in the middle of the night.
i'm not gonna disclose the message but it got me thinking.
whatever happened to amelia. whatever happened to me.

way back. not too long ago but way back.
when i was 5.
i started going for ballet lessons.
i took up the piano.
learnt to swim.
was enrolled for a milion and one tuition classes to improve my currently denaturing brain cells.
and i was like the happiest kid on the block.
playing with my HDB neighbours everyday and eating paddlepop

when i was 7
i made new friends.
i got enrolled to ats.
i quit ballet by then.
joined more tuiiton classes.
continued with piano.

when i was 9
i was constanly the top 10 in my class.
i fell sick often but was filled with love and care from my family and friends
i still went for tuition
i still learnt the piano.
i went to sunday school
i was happy i guess

when i was 11
i got myself into an EM1 class,
the third EM1 class to be exact.
mommy and daddy were proud.
the money spent on the tuitions paid off.
i wasn't very happy though.
no i wasn't
i guess this is the point my life escalates
i quit piano.
my grades took a dip
i think was last in class constantly
i was a failure
and the judgement day came and went.
plopping my arse into my current school
a neighbourhood school
i know my parents were let down
they still are

when i was 14 going on 15
i realised that
being in this school isn't that bad
i joined drama
i was kinda happy
i quit piano officially
i had cool friends. nice friends. (you know who you are :) )

now i'm 16
yes i officially am
i can't say i've been through alot.
but this is whatever happened to amelia.
i'm no talent
i agree
i don't have the brains ot the brawn.
i don't have any special talent.
i'm not that smart
i don't play the piano or any instrument for the record
i can't sing.
i'm not in track and field.(hahah. random)
but i have to say i am what i am.
this is me.so love me for who i am.

i can't say i know whats ahead in the future.
my results aren't that fantastic.but is that what life is all about.
i don't know whats laying there for me.
all i know is that i have to put my faith in God

so now i leave you all to ponder on whatever happened
and what life is and will be about.